I've seen fire & I've seen rain..

Givin' up this fight.

2007-04-25T04:45:13Z

Ok so I just got really angry looking at some of my previous posts.

Why is it I only write in here when I'm extremely emotional?
Oh well, I guess I'm not always the happy person most think I am.
I guess, I'm allowed to get angry and hurt too!
oooh life and how it has been extremely frustrating lately!

Good thing I have grade A friends.

Jehovah Jirah

2007-01-14T23:10:10Z

Surgery is tomorrow morning at 7:30 am.
We are leaving for Cleveland tonight.
I believe that this will be something that
can be removed and not cancerous.

I believe in Jehovah Jirah.
(My Provider!)

Prayers are welcomed &
My nerves are shot but I know
My Jehovah Jirah is with me the whole time. <3

beautifulmess16 @ 2007-01-02T14:05:00

2007-01-02T18:05:08Z

I can not go back to school this semester due to surgery.. again.
Not happy. :(

beautifulmess16 @ 2006-08-28T13:30:00

2006-08-28T17:32:49Z

"Most important, I learned that God is real! He and/or she is right inside you- underneath the pain, the sorrow and the shame." -Roseanne

beautifulmess16 @ 2006-04-30T21:54:00

2006-05-01T01:59:12Z

Friends Only!!!
*comment me to read my latest posts/blogs!

P.S. If you are already my friend, you don't have to send me a comment! I got'cha already!

beautifulmess16 @ 2006-04-26T13:02:00

2006-04-26T17:02:51Z

Your Musical Tastes Match: RuPaul

See her whole playlist here (iTunes required)

What Celebrity Matches Your Taste in Music?

Could this be anymore, me?

2006-04-21T00:35:25Z

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary.
You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward.
Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts.
All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

What Time Of Day Are You?

beautifulmess16 @ 2006-04-19T22:26:00

2006-04-20T02:26:59Z

You Are a Yellow Flower

A yellow flower tends to represent joy, friendship, and playfulness.
At times, you are childlike, as a buttercup is.
And at other times, you are fickle, like a dahlia.
And more than you wish, you tend to feel bittersweet, like a marigold.

What Color Flower Are You?

beautifulmess16 @ 2005-07-13T11:42:00

2005-07-13T15:43:14Z

Your Summer Anthem is Speed of Sound by Coldplay

All that noise, and all that sound,
All those places I got found.
And birds go flying at the speed of sound,
to show you how it all began.

You're out of your mind this summer, in a good way.

What's Your 2005 Summer Anthem?

Dave's gonna love this :)

Stop reading my damn Journal!

2005-07-07T04:19:37Z

Kristin Dye Stop reading MY LIVEJOURNAL! Oh, and you can stop being reading Beth's too! I haven't talked to you in years, probably the last time was when I yelled at you in front of the school. Oh, and Beth's not a slut... she has morals. So, stop drinkin' your Haterade and get a damn life. We have one, I suggest you get your own! Have a wonderful life and get out of ours!

beautifulmess16 @ 2005-03-23T13:11:00

2005-03-23T18:17:03Z

beautifulmess16 @ 2005-01-19T17:23:00

2005-01-19T22:24:35Z

Bush, Cheney and Rumsfeld) The Asses of Evil.

beautifulmess16 @ 2005-01-17T19:44:00

2005-01-18T00:45:14Z

beautifulmess16 @ 2005-01-07T11:50:00

2005-01-07T16:51:37Z

BETH LOVES MEN

beautifulmess16 @ 2005-01-07T11:50:00

2005-01-07T16:51:26Z

BETH LOVE WOMEN

beautifulmess16 @ 2005-01-07T11:50:00

2005-01-07T16:51:17Z

BETH IS HOT

beautifulmess16 @ 2005-01-07T11:49:00

2005-01-07T16:51:01Z

BETH IS A LOSER

beautifulmess16 @ 2005-01-06T11:43:00

2005-01-06T16:42:08Z

What is your emo band name? by spiralinghalo
Your band name is:	Poems to Angelica
You sound like:	My Chemical Romance
You will be signed to:	Saddle Creek Records
Your emo lyrics are:	"I want to be wherever you are, but I can't"
Name:

Quiz created with MemeGen!

beautifulmess16 @ 2004-12-29T20:56:00

2004-12-30T02:17:43Z

the basic
name: Megan
height: 5'3"
hair color : brunette's ;) because they have the most fun :)
length: umm.. not to tall but not a shortie!
pets: scruffy the cat and franky the dog! (I know haha, your dog's name is !)
currently wearin: pj's
drinkin: cranberry juice
listening to: the sounds of my parents laughing
thinkin about: how tired I am

do
you have a bf or gf: no
you have a crush on someone: nope
you wish you could live somewhere else: later in life, like England :)
you think about suicide: not normally
others find you attractive: oh course (wink!)
you want more piercings: maybe
you want more tattoos: I don't have a tatoo and I don't like them
you drink: maybe for a special occasion
you do drugs: No way bucko
you like cleaning: no
you write in cursive or print: I write in curprint :) lol.

what is..
your most overused phrase on aim: LOL (But I use it all the time too, LOL, you see!)
your first thought when you wake up for school: Mom, I'm sick!
first feature you notice in the opposite sex: the personality! (just kidding, I'm trying not to sound rude!) actually there hands! :)
ur bedtime: try to be in bed by 10 or 11 on school nights
your most missed memory: being carefree

for/against
using someone: for... of course againest
killing people: obviously against
teenage smoking: it doesn't bother me but againest
drunk driving: majorly againest...

do you believe in..
yourself: I try too
friends: yes
santa claus: in a weird way yes but I know he's not real... :(
tooth fairy: no
destiny/fate: maybe.
angels: yes
ghosts: yes
God: yes

this/that
pepsi or coke: coke
mcdonalds or burger king: mcdonalds
single or group dates: single
adidas or nikes: nikes
chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
cappucino or coffee: coffee

favorite..
food: chinese
thing to do: be with loved ones
thing to talk about: people! lol
clothes: pj's
holiday: my birthday
car: don't really care

future
age you wanna be married: when I find Mr. Right, could that be you? lol
number of children: I could never have children but if I did 2
names? Lennon, Paul, Annabelle, Stella (So MANY!)
describe your dream wedding: I think about this a lot actually, a shimmery pink, black and white wedding. I want a christian wedding in a church and we just live happily ever after!!
how do you want to die: I'm not sure, this is one I don't think of often
what do you want to be when u grow up: THE NEXT DELILAHH!!!!!!!!!! :) 102.1 YOU WILL LISTEN TO ME!
what country would you most like to visit: a third world country and do humanitarian aid work!

friends&life
do you ever wish you had another name: megan rose suits me fine
do you have a gf/bf: no
do you like anyone: no
which one of your friends acts the most like you: beth, it's actually scary
who have u known the longest of your friends: many of them
are you close to any family member: yes, my grandma ;)
who do you hang around the most: friends, work, family
whats the best feeling in the world: happiness
worst feeling: lonely, helplessness
what time is it now: 8:34 pm

have you ever..
flown on a plane: yeah
missed school because it was raining: no
told a guy/girl that you liked them: yeah
cried during a movie: yes
ever thought an animated character was hot: yea!!!!
had an imaginary friend: yeah
cut your hair: almost
had a crush on a teacher: yeah
been trashed or extremely intoxicated: maybe
been caught "doin something" : no
gotten beat up: nope
been in a fight: verbal ones
shoplifted: no

number..
of times i have had a heart broken: 1

of hearts i have broken: not sure, millions I suppose

of drugs taken illegally: maybe... not! lol
of people i would classify as true friends: 4
of people i consider my enemies: none

of scars: none

last person who..
slept in your bed: my cat

made you cry: not saying

you went to the movies with: mom, dad, jamie, grandma

said they were going to kill you: I hope know one
who hugged you: mommy

who called you: dan

have you ever..
been to Florida: yup
been to Killa Kali: no
China: nope
Canada: yup
wish you were the opposite sex: nope

had an imaginary friend : yes
red or blue: red

Spring or fall: fall
Santa or Rudolph: rudolph
Math or English: English

what are you going to do after you finish this survey: relax
how many buddies are on: 24

random
what's on your mouse pad: a blue streak! :)

favorite board game: monpoly with bethy and patrick
college plans: confusing as hell

Are you timely or always late: timely for the most part

in the past month have you ever..
went to the mall: yup

eatin sushi: no
been on stage:yes

been dumped: nope

gone skating :yes

made homemade cookies: yea
been in love: nope
dyed your hair: yes
stolen anything: no

in the last 48 hours have you..
cried: nope

bought something: yea
gotten sick: yea

said 'I Love You': yes

had a serious talk: yes
missed someone: yea
hugged someone: yes
kissed someone: yes

fought w/ your parents: nope

dreamed about someone you can't be with: yes
had a lot of sleep: nope
worked more than 20 hours: yes

the end.. gosh I have no life sometimes

Merry Christmas

2004-12-27T02:08:12Z

Merry Christmas everyone :) I hope everyone had a very *Merry* Christmas! I honestly can't believe this is my last high school Christmas. It's like now, I can sit at the adult table! hahahaha :) But all in all, I am truly grateful right now. I am thankful most importantly above any man-maid gift, for my family and friends. The people who love me unconditionally. The people who don't pick out my imperfections but love my imperfections perfectly. They are so special to me.. I am so blessed. I would have to say my favorite day of the year is Christmas Eve. I love Christmas Eve, there is so much holiday cheer in the air, but my holiday cheer was spoiled by Giant Eagle (Mad props the Harrig for also working in a grocery store on Christmas Eve!) I worked a whopping 8 hours and when I came home at 6:30, I about collapsed. It was by far the busiest day, I've ever had to work. My Mom didn't even wake me up for the Christmas Eve church service. I really felt guilty but Jesus understands :) hopefully... Anywhoo, after church everyone came back to my house. My family is hilarious! My grandma thought we all needed to have a Christmas Eve gift so she bought us all lottery tickets. I won 5 dollars! YEAH GRANDMA :) We had a wonderful dinner and my mom's famous log roll... yummy. After dinner we sat around the table and talked about old traditions and how the years have flown by. Kristen, Clay, Jamie and I are all growing up and I can still remember when Kristen Schnars (My cousin!) was a little monkey baby :) She was always climbing on everything and Clay always wanting to sing and dance with me. Oh how the time flies.... After we had a holly jolly Christmas Eve everyone left and we all watched the Christmas Story. We all went to bed, while sugarplums danced in our heads. We all slept in until 9 when my dad came into my room and woke me up, he woke me up and we talked for a bit and we got the family up. Grandma spent the night at my house so we woke her up and we all went downstairs to open presents. The fire was lite in the fire place, Christmas music was playing in the background and the lights we aglow. Christmas was the Christmas I remembered as a child. We first opened presents from the 5 of us. I wrote my parents a poem and they both wepted with tears of happiness. They really loved it and I was was a little emotional too. Our family has really come a long way since couple summers ago. We opened our presents and thanked the Lord for a blessed Christmas. We ate our wonderful Christmas breakfast and my dad said a wonderful prayer. I was blessed with so many gifts like CD's, dvds an awesome purse.. And a massager!!!!!!! I am so thankful. I went upstairs and took a little nap and when I woke up it was time to go over to Kristen's house. My aunt and uncle really surprised us this year. They put a Movie THEATER down there basement. It is awesome. Popcorn, Movies and Leather huge comfy seats!! Yea baby. It is amazing. I mean, we could never afford it but they can and it's awesome. We watched movies and enjoyed each other's company, we opened gifts and ate another great dinner. It was a wonderful evening. I couldn't of asked for a better Christmas... :) I just want you all know to know I love and appreciate your friendship. Thanks for all you do all year around. All of you spread holiday cheer all year around! Love you always.

beautifulmess16 @ 2004-12-19T23:15:00

2004-12-20T04:15:50Z

"I know what it's like to be a struggling mother.."- President Bush

beautifulmess16 @ 2004-12-16T23:15:00

2004-12-17T04:15:47Z

I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
*I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me*

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn’t he catch my falling star
I wish I didn’t wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in may
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name

*I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn’t make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me*

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn’t he catch my falling star
I wish I didn’t wish so hard
Maybe I wish our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

Oh my soul is dying, it’s crying
I’m trying to understand
Please help me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn’t he catch my falling star
I wish I didn’t wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

beautifulmess16 @ 2004-12-15T21:12:00

2004-12-16T02:13:34Z

"I thought maybe we could make ginger bread houses, and eat cookie dough, and go ice skating, and maybe even hold hands."- Buddy, The Elf

beautifulmess16 @ 2004-12-12T00:05:00

2004-12-12T05:06:45Z

B u S y! B u S y!!!!!

Tis' the season for "A Gospel According to Scrooge!" If you all didn't know, I'm doing a church production of "A Gospel According to Scrooge!" It is by far one of the best experiences I've ever had. But, It's hard going back on stage after this fall. I also am starting to get the impression that know one understands the true heart-ache I felt when I got cut from the play. But, it is over and it's all in the past. And honestly, I don't care that much since my musical has sold out to nearly hundreds of people coming to see it. Plus, People are coming to know Christ. But this production is what's to come and from what we've done with this production so far, it has turned out to be just magnificant. I am blessed in so many aspects of my life. Ahh, Life has it's ups and downs but it always turns ok to be alright in the End. Thank God. S o.. Another Performance tomorrow and hopefully I will see some of you guys there. And if not, you guys are missing out!!!! It's at East Market Street Church of God at 7!!!

beautifulmess16 @ 2004-12-11T01:00:00

2004-12-11T06:03:15Z

Mary, did you know?
When you kiss your little baby,
you've kissed the face of God.

JESUS IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON!!!

How do your LJ friends feel about you?
LJ Username
Age:
Random word:
Loves you:	runnerkid
Hates you:	dspoon
Is talking trash about you behind your back:	stoopidgirl
Secretly wants to have a love child with you:	moeboejoe
Knows something about you that no one else does:	beautifulmess16
Thinks about you all the time:	babeeface1234

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I've seen fire & I've seen rain..

Givin' up this fight.

Jehovah Jirah

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Could this be anymore, me?

beautifulmess16 @ 2006-04-19T22:26:00

beautifulmess16 @ 2005-07-13T11:42:00

Stop reading my damn Journal!

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Merry *Christ*mas

beautifulmess16 @ 2004-12-19T23:15:00

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Merry Christmas